Sorry it’s been so long!!

So I haven’t fallen off the wagon just been so busy working to make money for our trip to FLORIDA!!!  I have lost a total of three pounds as of last week and have not weighted myself yet this week.  I have been eating right (no pop and no fast food) and exercising.  I just hit my first big goal and it was to run the park without stopping.  I know it sounds silly to some but it was a goal for me and I achieved it.

I am looking to do the hell run in September so I need to stay consistent with working out and running.  It gives me something to shoot for and I think it will be fun!!!  I am so thankful for everyone that has been supporting me.  Not to mention how proud I am of my dad who has taken the initiative too!!  He is a great man!! Well I am out for today but remember stay strong and take the time to take care of yourself.

 

“Your always one step ahead of the guy on the couch”

Took the initiative…and crushed it!!!

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Well today was quite the day!!!  After yesterdays powerhouse of exercising which included: a walk, volleyball, rollerblading, total gym, and taebo, today was not any different. Joe and I went to the gym and did some cardio, and worked on our arms a little.  Then we came home and tried to play volleyball (the ball was just to hard for me) and ended up playing catch.  I really enjoy playing catch because it takes my mind off everything and brings me to a place I love.

I loved every minute of playing softball.  Everyone has something that relaxes them, and it may seem silly that playing catch is something that does that for me but I couldn’t ask for more.  I love throwing the ball back and forth running around.  It is great.  Joe is a great sport too.  I throw a little harder than I should sometimes but he sticks it out.  What a great man!!!

After all our exercise Joe and I went to the store and got our cereal (special k) and some carrots.  We had a great talk yesterday about the things we have to do to better ourselves, and be the people we want to be.  We agreed no pop is a big thing, and we have been doing great almost a full week.  We need to go to the gym everyday or do some sort of activity, whether it be together or separate.  We also thought being supportive of each other was cliche, we agreed to stop each other before we eat something that is bad for us.  We also thought of reporting to each other what we did at the gym if we don’t go together.  That way we have to tell the other if we didn’t go and I know I wouldn’t feel good about it.  I really like having such a supportive boyfriend who thinks I am beautiful even if I didn’t lose any weight.  He knows, though, that I want to do this for me! 😀  So far so good.

I hope that this is helping someone else be motivated to better themselves.  If it is please let me know because I think knowing it’s helping you will motivate me to keep up the good work!!  Thanks

Sincerely,

Jackie 😀

“And it’s a great day to be alive. I know the sun’s still shinin when I close my eyes. There’s some hard times in the neigborhood, but why can’t every day be just this good?” –Travis Tritt

New Inspiration…for myself

I tried this before and everyone was so supportive.  I am the one that fell off the wagon.  If I am going to do this I need to do it for myself before I can do it for anyone else.  For the last week I have given up pop it has been super easy actually.  I have found I really enjoy unsweetened ice tea (give it a try with some lemons).  I have been walking, and went hiking up starved rock this past weekend.  I hate how I look, though, I need to change that.  I need to be comfortable with myself or my life will never be happy.  I have so much to live for, and right now is vital to making sure I am confident in myself.  How can I see myself in a job interview if I don’t even like how I look sitting there.

I want you all to know I appreciate your support and have actually gotten some feedback about not writing all the time.  So I will begin my blogs again (this first ones for you Maggie).  I hope that I stay on the wagon this time.  I need this more than ever before.  Step one is getting out now to do walk number two of the day!!  Stay positive, stay focused, and stay smart.  My new motto!.

Sincerely,

Jackie aka back on the wagon and holding on for dear life!

Finding Something That Works

Well, it is officially not easy to lose weight.  I hate looking around and watching so many people drop pounds like it is nothing.  I always wonder to myself why don’t I have that motivation, why can’t I stay on track, or what is wrong with me?  I just don’t get it.  I want to lose weight and I know I have to, but why can’t I!!!!  I tried the no flour no sugar diet.  It just wasn’t for me.  I am more of a workout oriented dieter.  I love going to the gym and once im there it is a fun place for me to be.  I just feel like dieting makes me feel worse about myself and that by ligting and running I am gaining muscle that makes it look like I lost no weight.  So I have looked into the Special K diet.  It seems doable.  I just was wondering if anyone had any feedback.  I enjoy vegetables and fruits, and their products seem enjoyable.  I would love if someone could give me some feedback on this diet, and what you guys think.

I really appreciate all the support you have given me.  I just wish I could support myself.  It seems impossible for me to really be positive and not fall off the waggon, but it is really hard for me and my family to lose weight.  Please help me out!

❤ Jackie (aka the “I fell off the wagon, and I need to get back on”)

Frustration

So frustration, frustration, frustration.   I have come to the conclusion that this lifestyle change makes me feel nothing but terrible about myself.  I think I need to do this slowly and not so aggressive as I have been trying cause I am back to where I was, and the only thing I have accomplished is a constant gym routine.  I have decided cutting out fast food, fried food, pop, and candy is a good start.

Lifestyle changes are hard but none should leave you in tears in your boyfriends car because you feel fat, and like no matter how hard you try you fail.  I have so much going on in my life right now with student teaching, graduation approaching, and growing up and becoming independent in general that my weight is the last thing I need to piss me off.  I really want to lose weight and become healthier.  But one step at a time.

Anna has really opened my eyes to the way I was doing things was : 1. unhealthy and 2. unresponsive.  It just wasnt working for me.  So here we go again the battle with weight.  This time, though, I am determined to win: one way or another.  It’s on!

First Accomplishment…small but encouraging!!

So I lost TWO POUNDS.  It may not seem like a lot, but to me it is it means I am only 18 pounds from the weight that I would like to be at.  I am so proud of myself and Joe lost three!! He is doing awesome too.

We went to eat today and I had a burger, with no bun.  The best part is that I didnt even want the bun or crave it :).  Then we went to the gym.  Normally when we head to the gym we are there for a half hour or 45 minutes.  Today, I am so proud of us, we were there for an hour and a half!!!!  We started with ten minutes of warmup cardio.  Then today was our day for legs.  I really pushed myself today and definitely felt the burn.  It was amazing.  Then Joe helped me with my ab workouts that I like to do and we then finished with ten more minutes on the treadmill.  It was an amazing workout!!  These are accomplishments in themselves.  I cannot believe that the little changes that I have made in the last week have already showed me some result.  I feel better! I have more energy, and am starting to feel like this is actually duable!!!

I am so thankful for the support that I have around me, and for the encouragement people have been giving me.  I am still learning what I can and can’t eat but I am going to be okay.  I know I can do this and the -2 pounds shows that.  TWO DOWN EIGHTEEN TO GO!!!! 😀

 

“Instead of giving myself reasons why I can’t, I give myself reasons why I can.”

~ Unknown

Day 1: Hardest!!

Well today was the first day of my new lifestyle.  It was the hardest day, but I also learned a lot today.  I went grocery shopping picked up some things I needed: cheerios, bananas, apples, lettuce, cucumbers, carrots.  I thought I was set, but I was starving after my cheerios and bananas breakfast and my brown rice and carrots lunch.  I visited my boyfriend and learned from his mom that there is so much more I can eat.  My goal is to stay away from sugar and flour.  That I can do.  I need carbs in my diet to keep my eneergy up for working out, etc.  Joes mom really opened my eyes and made this seem a lot easier.

I was so proud of myself today for the way I ate, and lookd at labels.  It was a good start.  I was evern proud of myself because I went to my first exercise class and I LOVED IT!!!  The booty kickin step class at blast was amazing.  It was the right kind of difficult and it really made me sweat, something that I had just told my boyfriend I hadnt really been doing when at the gym.  I left the class satisfied with my workout and ready to start the day.  It wasnt boring, and I had so much fun.  I cannot wait to go back on Wednesday morning.  Tomorrow night I decided to go to the abs class.  I want to try as many classes as I can to see how they are, and to pick the ones I really enjoy.

I did notice there is somethin I need to work on.  I need to realize I cannot starve myself.  I need to eat, just because I am eating healthy doesnt mean that I have to starve myself.  This is how I thought healthy lifestyles to be.  My boyfriend has been an amazing support system so far, and he really knows what to say to make me feel better.

Overall, I had a good first day and I think I can do this.  I know this is going to be hard, but I think I am going to do it. I may slip up, I may fall off, but I will always get back up.

One should eat to live, not live to eat.  ~Cicero, Rhetoricorum LV