Finding Something That Works

Well, it is officially not easy to lose weight.  I hate looking around and watching so many people drop pounds like it is nothing.  I always wonder to myself why don’t I have that motivation, why can’t I stay on track, or what is wrong with me?  I just don’t get it.  I want to lose weight and I know I have to, but why can’t I!!!!  I tried the no flour no sugar diet.  It just wasn’t for me.  I am more of a workout oriented dieter.  I love going to the gym and once im there it is a fun place for me to be.  I just feel like dieting makes me feel worse about myself and that by ligting and running I am gaining muscle that makes it look like I lost no weight.  So I have looked into the Special K diet.  It seems doable.  I just was wondering if anyone had any feedback.  I enjoy vegetables and fruits, and their products seem enjoyable.  I would love if someone could give me some feedback on this diet, and what you guys think.

I really appreciate all the support you have given me.  I just wish I could support myself.  It seems impossible for me to really be positive and not fall off the waggon, but it is really hard for me and my family to lose weight.  Please help me out!

❤ Jackie (aka the “I fell off the wagon, and I need to get back on”)

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Frustration

So frustration, frustration, frustration.   I have come to the conclusion that this lifestyle change makes me feel nothing but terrible about myself.  I think I need to do this slowly and not so aggressive as I have been trying cause I am back to where I was, and the only thing I have accomplished is a constant gym routine.  I have decided cutting out fast food, fried food, pop, and candy is a good start.

Lifestyle changes are hard but none should leave you in tears in your boyfriends car because you feel fat, and like no matter how hard you try you fail.  I have so much going on in my life right now with student teaching, graduation approaching, and growing up and becoming independent in general that my weight is the last thing I need to piss me off.  I really want to lose weight and become healthier.  But one step at a time.

Anna has really opened my eyes to the way I was doing things was : 1. unhealthy and 2. unresponsive.  It just wasnt working for me.  So here we go again the battle with weight.  This time, though, I am determined to win: one way or another.  It’s on!

First Accomplishment…small but encouraging!!

So I lost TWO POUNDS.  It may not seem like a lot, but to me it is it means I am only 18 pounds from the weight that I would like to be at.  I am so proud of myself and Joe lost three!! He is doing awesome too.

We went to eat today and I had a burger, with no bun.  The best part is that I didnt even want the bun or crave it :).  Then we went to the gym.  Normally when we head to the gym we are there for a half hour or 45 minutes.  Today, I am so proud of us, we were there for an hour and a half!!!!  We started with ten minutes of warmup cardio.  Then today was our day for legs.  I really pushed myself today and definitely felt the burn.  It was amazing.  Then Joe helped me with my ab workouts that I like to do and we then finished with ten more minutes on the treadmill.  It was an amazing workout!!  These are accomplishments in themselves.  I cannot believe that the little changes that I have made in the last week have already showed me some result.  I feel better! I have more energy, and am starting to feel like this is actually duable!!!

I am so thankful for the support that I have around me, and for the encouragement people have been giving me.  I am still learning what I can and can’t eat but I am going to be okay.  I know I can do this and the -2 pounds shows that.  TWO DOWN EIGHTEEN TO GO!!!! 😀

 

“Instead of giving myself reasons why I can’t, I give myself reasons why I can.”

~ Unknown

Day 1: Hardest!!

Well today was the first day of my new lifestyle.  It was the hardest day, but I also learned a lot today.  I went grocery shopping picked up some things I needed: cheerios, bananas, apples, lettuce, cucumbers, carrots.  I thought I was set, but I was starving after my cheerios and bananas breakfast and my brown rice and carrots lunch.  I visited my boyfriend and learned from his mom that there is so much more I can eat.  My goal is to stay away from sugar and flour.  That I can do.  I need carbs in my diet to keep my eneergy up for working out, etc.  Joes mom really opened my eyes and made this seem a lot easier.

I was so proud of myself today for the way I ate, and lookd at labels.  It was a good start.  I was evern proud of myself because I went to my first exercise class and I LOVED IT!!!  The booty kickin step class at blast was amazing.  It was the right kind of difficult and it really made me sweat, something that I had just told my boyfriend I hadnt really been doing when at the gym.  I left the class satisfied with my workout and ready to start the day.  It wasnt boring, and I had so much fun.  I cannot wait to go back on Wednesday morning.  Tomorrow night I decided to go to the abs class.  I want to try as many classes as I can to see how they are, and to pick the ones I really enjoy.

I did notice there is somethin I need to work on.  I need to realize I cannot starve myself.  I need to eat, just because I am eating healthy doesnt mean that I have to starve myself.  This is how I thought healthy lifestyles to be.  My boyfriend has been an amazing support system so far, and he really knows what to say to make me feel better.

Overall, I had a good first day and I think I can do this.  I know this is going to be hard, but I think I am going to do it. I may slip up, I may fall off, but I will always get back up.

One should eat to live, not live to eat.  ~Cicero, Rhetoricorum LV

 

Day Before the Big Change :D

The day before the big change; change of eating, exercising, and feeling better about myself.  Feeling bad about myself and putting myself down ends tomorrow.  I am going to begin the no sugar and no carb diets.  I have an amazing support system behind me, and have hope that I will be able to do this.  I want to change and be healthier for myself and for my future.  I received some serious motivation from Anna and her battle with her weight.  I am looking forward to beginning my own adventure.

I come from a family that struggles with their weight.  I see how hard it is for them to lose weight in their older age, and I never want to get to that point of frustration.  In order to do that I need to start now.  All my life I have been a little chunky, but never enough for anyone to really call me obese or fat, yet inside I have felt like a terrible person.  I have hit a point, though, in my life at the age of 21, where I find it very important to feel better about myself and think about my future and how my health and wellness will affect it.  In the last two years, as weird as it is, I have gained one pound, but I have fluctuated with being healthy and not.This isn’t going to be just a diet for me its a life change.

I chose to do a blog because I have read that writing about your weight loss and battle really helps to keep you on track.  Also my friend Anna has done a blog and it seems to work for her as a support system in itself.  So tomorrow begins the new me, the better me, and the more confident me.  I will begin my adventure with a trip to the gym tonight to get a good workout in, and to begin on the right foot.

Thank you in advance for your support and motivation.  I really appreciate it because just like for anyone this isn’t going to be an easy road.

❤ Jackie

P.S:  This is a before picture of my mom and I.  I hope in a month or two to have a picture that shows results.

“Every day do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow.”
Doug Firebaugh